The Start of the Power House

I'll be 30 in less than a year and I won't lie - it's freaking me out.  Ten years ago, I would have thought that at 30, I'd be married with a few kids, have a booming career and own a home.  Never in my entire life would have imagined that I'd be in a job that I'm not sure if I even like much less want to make a career out of, living in my father-in-law's house, and in such a huge amount of debt that I almost vomit at the very thought of it.  Thank God for Brian and Larkin otherwise I don't know how well I'd be able to handle this impending goodbye of my 20's.
Even with all of that - life is what you make it and I plan to make this last year of my 20's one to never forget.

This blog will focus on my life, my thoughts and my weight loss journey.  I refuse to go into my 30's as a fat ass and I want to live long enough to see Larkin grow up and have her own children.  So it's on.  I have an extremely impressionable little girl looking up to me and I need to be the best version of myself.  So get ready blog world.

Fat, unsatisfied girl coming in.  Power house emerging.

Momsomnia

I haven't slept in about 13 months.  The little ladybug will be a year old next month and hasn't slept through the night.  Ever.  Add on the last two months of my pregnancy with her that involved constant itching and hot flashes and that constitutes no sleep.  Now, as I sit here unable to sleep, she and the husband are peacefully taking up the entire bed and snoring.

I don't think I'd trade it for anything in the world.

Except maybe a 12 hour full body massage, a meal where I'm not dodging thrown spaghetti, and someone to shave my legs for me.